This Flash Memoir is written
on behalf of a friend named "Rosemary Angel Lily, BA. BEd. Hons." Names and identifying
details have been changed to protect the privacy of individuals.
Please refer to the "Private Revelation" page of the web site to
get a better understanding of what private revelations are and
why they are of benefit to the Church.
"I bear a special
love for Poland, and if she will be obedient to My will, I will
exalt her in might and holiness. From her will come forth the
spark that will prepare the world for My final coming." (Diary
"Oh, what happens to a soul that meets the Lord face to face, no
pen has ever expressed or ever will express!" (Diary 691)
"And instruct them to keep everything whatever I have commanded
you, and behold, I am with you every day, even unto the end of
time." (Matthew 28:20)
"Mankind will not have peace until it
turns with trust to My Mercy." (Diary 300)
YES, JESUS IS REAL! -
FLASH MEMOIR BY ROSA
I will begin my
memoir by discussing the series of events that led up to my
private revelations of the risen Christ Jesus, The Son of Man. on
September 29 and October 6, 2018. I believe it was the Virgin
Mary, Co-Redemptrix that led me to her beloved son Jesus Christ.
I feel indeed very blessed with the Graces
(private revelations) I have received from God as they were the
catalyst for my own "Enlightenment" and "Reversion".
I have to
admit, I was in a quandary about sharing these Graces with
others, and if I was to do so, I wondered how I would go about
this. After all, Jesus did not
ask me to share our encounters, or so I thought. Yet, my heart, mind and soul
have been restless, ever since I have had these encounters. Not a
day goes by that Jesus is not in my thoughts and in my heart - I
feel as though I am in a permanent state of awe and perpetual adoration.
I can sense the incessant prompting of the
Holy Spirit, continuously stirring within the very depths of my
soul, engaging and emboldening me to assist
Him in His mission to Save Souls!
“You shall love the
Lord, your God, with all your heart, with all your soul, and
with all your mind. This is the greatest and the first
commandment. The second is:*
You shall love your neighbour as yourself. (Matthew
and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the
name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the holy
Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I
have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always,
until the end of the age.” (Matthew 28:19-20)
I am giving you
three ways of exercising mercy toward your neighbour:
the first - by deed, the second - by word, the third -
by prayer. In these three degrees is contained the
fullness of mercy, and it is an unquestionable proof
of love for Me. By this means a soul glorifies and pays
reverence to My mercy. Yes, the first Sunday after
Easter is the Feast of Mercy, but there must also be
acts of mercy, and I demand the worship of My mercy
through the solemn celebration of the Feast and through
the veneration of the image which is painted. By means
of this image I shall grant many graces to souls. It
is to be a reminder of the demands of My mercy, because
even the strongest faith is of no avail without works.
Tell sinners that no one shall
escape My Hand; if they run away from My Merciful Heart,
they will fall into My Just Hands. Tell sinners that I
am always waiting for them, that I listen intently to
the beating of their heart ... when will it beat for Me?
Write, that I am speaking to them through their remorse
of conscience, through their failures and sufferings,
through thunderstorms, through the voice of the Church.
And if they bring all My graces to naught, I begin to be
angry with them, leaving them alone and giving them what
they want. (Diary, 1728)
Needless to say, this experience
touched my heart, mind and soul in such a profound way that is
beyond what words can explain. I consider myself to be a very
private person and the thought of bearing my soul to complete
strangers was daunting to say the least. However, as the old
saying goes, "love conquers all". I have truly come to know how
intense the love the Lord Jesus has for me (and each and every
single one of us). The way He pursued (pursues) me, it was (is)
like I was (am) His only creature and the rest of the world just
fell (falls) away. He knew (knows) everything about me (and you)
– ever so intimately, more than you can ever imagine!
To be completely frank, initially, I felt
rather jealous and protective, in that I did not want to share My Beloved with
anyone, as I wanted Him all to myself, all the more now
that I met Him face to face! I the
creature, fell deeply in love with my Creator, my God and my
Abba! However, He is God and
if you think about the fact that He created the whole universe
and everything and everyone it, you realize there is more
than enough of Him and His perfect, unfathomable love to go
around the world!
His heart’s desire is that we all
pursue and love Him in return – He wants to be our soulmate.
Indeed and rightly so, this is His first commandment. I suppose this is yet another way I
find myself sharing in His likeness
which is not surprising to me at all considering
we are truly made in His image and likeness,
in that He does not want us
to share our deepest affections with anyone or anything else.
“… I, the LORD your
God, am a jealous
A Cradle Catholic
I will now proceed with my memoir by providing a brief background about my faith.
Following this, I will tell you how I came to receive this
unimaginable, extraordinary grace from our Lord Jesus Christ.
I am a cradle
catholic and come from catholic parents, grandparents and great
grandparents etc. I went to a catholic
elementary school and high school. I possess two university
degrees. While I received all the sacraments, my church
attendance was spotty. My God parents were devout Catholics and
were very involved within their parish. I am sure they always
kept me in their prayers and that they are praying for me now in
heaven. I can recall that the various
teachers (many of whom were nuns)
that taught me in my elementary and high school years were a
great source of encouragement and comfort to me. Music was also a
source of comfort and joy to me. Music was in fact my most
favourite subject and I took part in the school choir. I can
still remember the lyrics to many of the Catholic hymns I
learned as a child. I could truly feel God's presence while
listening to and/or singing hymns and still do.
As famous musician
and composer, Johannes Sebastian Bach once said:
“Where there is devotional music, God is always at hand with His
“Music is an agreeable harmony for the honor of God and the
permissible delights of the soul.”
I went through periods of time where I
attended mass regularly and other times where I didn't.
Throughout my childhood, my family did not attend mass
regularly. Normally, we only went to church on special
occasions such as Christmas and Easter. However, I can recall my
maternal grandfather walking to mass every Sunday as he walked past our
house and then stopped by for a visit after mass.
Ever since I was a
child, I believe that I have always been blessed with the grace
of faith in God. I maintained a relationship with Him, through
conversation and prayer which gave me great consolation and hope
during my earliest trials. Although I had doubts about some of the
Church’s teachings, particularly where Jesus Christ was
concerned, I was always able to see God in nature.
I loved and was fascinated (and still am) by all His "living" creations.
I had an innate sense of God and I
saw His presence everywhere in the living nature all around us.
It was as though I instinctively knew that the trees, flowers,
animals, people etc were all created and loved by God. I
would often spend my spare time in the summer watching insects,
animals and plants as their beauty and unique behaviours
captivated me and still do. I grew up with animals and we had a
huge garden which I enjoyed immensely.
My greatest fascination was watching seeds grow
into plants and newborn animals grow into adults. I was equally
passionate about children and knew that I had to have my own
family one day so I could experience bringing new life into the
world and motherhood - This was most certainly my vocation. My own body and its functions fascinated
me and still do - I find it amazing that we can walk and talk
etc without being plugged into a power source like an electrical
outlet! While I did not have a daily prayer life at that time, I
prayed and talked to God regularly. I knew He was listening and
would answer my prayers if it was His will and on His time.
I was ever so grateful for everything He gave me. Despite that I
did not fully understand my faith back then, there existed an
element of trust. After all, He was God my Creator and I new He
loved me and would take care of me in good times andin
Regardless of my very
limited knowledge of the catechism, I maintained this
strong faith in God, although I did not really comprehend Jesus
Christ nor The Holy Spirit for that matter. The concept of
"The Holy Trinity" was most baffling to me. At one point I even
wondered, why would a loving God allow His son (if indeed Jesus
was His son) to be tortured and sacrificed on a cross in such a
cruel and humiliating way? This sounded incomprehensible to me
and rather "cultic" so I avoided thinking about it all together.
This was very easy for me to do, since I could not bear the
thought of such horrible suffering existing in our world anyway.
Like most of us, I wanted to avoid thinking about suffering, as
that was too painful.
I was also
aware that Jesus was considered to be a prophet and not the son
of God by some other religions. Therefore, I thought, perhaps
that was a possibility and the bible was wrong. Despite these
uncertainties, I was certain that God in Heaven existed and that
if I was a good person and led a good life, I would be with Him
for all eternity when I died. That was good enough for me.
As I went through my
growing pains, I came to accept that suffering was a part of
living here on earth and that it was only temporary as there
would be no suffering in heaven, only joy and peace. Even
as a child, I always had a sense that there was something not
quite right about this world. At times I thought to
myself, the things this world has to offer are such a waste of
time considering they serve no purpose after death. I had the
early wisdom of knowing that striving for and accomplishing
earthly possessions and goals were not going to be satisfying as
my soul thirsted for more. I suppose that at times, my
early wisdom resembled
that of Saint Franciso Marto , one of the three Fatima children.
When asked what he
wanted to be when he grew up, Francisco answered,
"I don't want to
be anything. I want to die and go to heaven."
It was as though
my young soul knew I didn't really belong here as this was not
my real home.
As Christians we are gravely aware that this world is oftentimes
hostile as Jesus himself attested:
"If the world hate you, know ye,
that it hath hated me before you. If you had been of the
world, the world would love its own: but because you are not
of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world,
therefore the world hateth you. Remember my word that I said
to you: The servant is not greater than his master. If they
have persecuted me, they will also persecute you: if they
have kept my word, they will keep yours also. But all these
things they will do to you for my name's sake: because they
know not him who sent me. If I had not come, and
spoken to them, they would not have sin; but now they have
no excuse for their sin. He that hateth me, hateth my
Father also. If had not done among them the works that no
other man hath done, they would not have sin; but now they
have both seen and hated both me and my Father. But that the
word may be fulfilled which is written in their law: They
hated me without cause."(John 15:18-25)
Once I became an adult
and had my own family, I found myself occupied with raising
children etc. I truly had no idea that not going to church or
working on Sunday was a mortal sin. In fact, I did not even know
what a mortal sin was. I was
also one of those Catholics that did not really believe in
Jesus' real presence in the Eucharist. Rather, I tended to
believe the bread and the wine are symbolic of Jesus’
body and blood. Considering, that I did not really know who
Jesus was, I could not truly appreciate what the Eucharist
Suffering Has A Purpose - It promotes spiritual growth and a
realization of one's total dependence on God.
As time went on, I came to a point in my adult life where I
encountered a very serious "crisis" and came to experience
the most profound "suffering and pain" for the first time in my
life, where I found myself truly alone with God for the first
time in my life. After much prayer
and reflection, I made the decision not to share the details of
my personal trials and tribulations concerning this "crisis" as I desire that Jesus Christ
and His message of Mercy be my sole focus. Suffice it to say, that God took this opportunity to draw me closer to His
son Jesus so I can get to know and fall in love with Him,
the God Man, My Abba - the Hypostatic Union and the road to our Salvation.
"God whispers to us in our
Speaks in our conscience, but shouts to us in our pains.
It is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world."
- C.S. Lewis
Our personal trials of
life give us an opportunity and often drive us to question our
relationship with God. It is during these times that we face
suffering or a trial of some sort that our reaction is "Why me?"
"What did I do to deserve this?" or, "If God is so loving and
merciful, why would He let this happen?" As we all know, there
are many types of suffering - poor health, death of someone we
love, abusive relationships, addictions, etc. The reality
is, this list is endless. Regardless of the problem or cause,
pain is pain and it is essential that we ask ourselves, "what is
God trying to teach me through this cross?" We face adversity in
all walks of life.
spoke these words to Saint Faustina:
suffering will be a sign to you that I am with you." (Diary,
"My daughter, do not
be afraid of sufferings; I am with you." (Diary, 151)
meditate frequently on the sufferings which I have undergone for
your sake, and then nothing of what you suffer for Me will seem
great to you. You please me most when you meditate on My
Sorrowful Passion. Join your little sufferings to My Sorrowful
Passion, so that they may have infinite value before My
Majesty." (Diary, 1512)
"There is more merit
to one hour of meditation on My sorrowful Passion than there is
to a whole year of flagellation that draws blood; the
contemplation of My painful wounds is of great profit to you,
and it brings me great joy" (Diary, 369).
Passion, and if you do not believe My words, at least believe My
wounds." (Diary, 379)
"If anyone wants to
be a follower of mine, let him renounce himself and take up his
cross every day and follow me." (Lk 9:23 )
Regarding trials, Saint Faustina wrote:
sometimes allows them, but always in order to manifest or
develop virtue in our soul. That is the reason for trials."
Paul also wrote that suffering has a purpose:
"Yes, the troubles which are soon over,
though they weigh little, train us for the carrying of a weight
of eternal glory which is out of all proportion to them. And so
we have no eyes for things that are visible, but only for things
that are invisible; for visible things last only for a time, and
the invisible things are eternal." (2 Cor 4:17 -18)
"My dear people, you must not think it
unaccountable that you should be tested by fire. There is
nothing extraordinary in what has happened to you. If you can
have some share in the sufferings of Christ, be glad, because
you will enjoy a much greater gladness when his glory is
revealed." (1 Peter 4:12-13)
vision, Saint Faustina tells us about the horrifying details of
the suffering Jesus endured for the sake of all humanity:
"Today, during the
Passion Service, I saw Jesus being tortured and crowned with
thorns and holding a reed in His hand. Jesus was silent as the
soldiers were bustling about, vying with each other in torturing
Him. Jesus said nothing, but just looked at me, and in that gaze
I felt His pain, so terrible that we have not the faintest idea
of how much He suffered for us before He was crucified. My soul
was filled with pain and longing; in my soul, I felt great
hatred for sin, and even the smallest infidelity on my part
seemed to me like a huge mountain for which I must expiate by
mortification and penance. When I see Jesus tormented, my heart
is torn to pieces, and I think: what will become of sinners if
they do not take advantage of the Passion of Jesus? In His
Passion, I see a whole sea of mercy" (Diary, 948).
offer our sufferings and crosses back to Jesus, we live the
words of Saint Paul:
"I have been crucified
with Christ, and it is no longer I who live, but it is Christ
who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by
faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me"
(Gal 2:19 -20).
"For if we have died
with Him, we will also live with Him." (2 Tim 2:11 ).
important to keep in mind that while holy scripture is filled
with accounts of healings, our personal healing will take place,
only if it is compatible with God's will. For those for whom
suffering is part of His plan, we should reflect on Jesus' words
to Saint Faustina,
"I thirst, I thirst
for the salvation of souls. Help Me, My daughter, to save souls.
Join your sufferings to My Passion and offer them to the
Heavenly Father for sinners." (Diary, 1032)
sufferings, we should take on the attitude of Jesus when He told
"When I was dying on
the cross, I was not thinking about Myself, but about poor
sinners, and I prayed for them to My Father. I want your last
moments to be completely similar to Mine on the cross. There is
but one price at which souls are bought, and that is suffering
united to My suffering on the cross. Pure love understands these
words; carnal love will never understand them." (Diary, 324)
Paul wrote these words:
"I am now rejoicing in
my sufferings for your sake, and in my flesh I am completing
what is lacking in Christ's afflictions for the sake of his
body, that is, the church." (Col 1:24).
While our spirit may be
strong, the flesh is weak and at times we grow weary and get
discouraged. We often ask, "What is the purpose?" "When will it
be over?" or, "Why me?" however, we must maintain our focus on
Jesus and run the good race.
vision contrasting worldly people versus those who accept and
carry their cross for Jesus on earth, Sister Faustina wrote:
"One day, I saw two
roads. One was broad, covered with sand and flowers, full of
joy, music and all sorts of pleasures. People walked along it,
dancing and enjoying themselves. They reached the end without
realizing it. At the end of the road, there was a horrible
precipice; that is, the abyss of hell. The souls fell blindly
into it; as they walked, so they fell. And their number was so
great it was impossible to count them. And I saw the other road,
or rather, a path, for it was narrow and strewn with thorns and
rocks and the people who walked along it had tears in their
eyes, and all kinds of sufferings befell them. Some fell down
upon the rocks, but stood up immediately and went on. At the end
of the road there was a magnificent garden filled with all sorts
of happiness, and all these souls entered there. At the very
first instant, they forgot all their sufferings." (Diary, 153)
become weary from the battles of everyday life, we should
reflect on Jesus' Passion and the rewards to come to those who
are faithful. Saint Faustina expresses this well in these words:
"There is a series of
graces which God pours into the soul after these trials by fire.
The soul enjoys intimate union with God. It has many visions,
both corporal and intellectual. It hears many supernatural
words, and sometimes distinct orders. But despite these graces,
it is not self-sufficient. In fact it is even less so as a
result of God's graces, because it is now open to many dangers
and can easily fall prey to illusions. It ought to ask God for a
spiritual director; but not only must it pray for one, it must
also make every effort to find a leader who is an expert in
these things, just as a military leader must know the ways along
which he will lead [his followers] into battle. A soul that is
united with God must be prepared for great and hard-fought
battles." (Diary, 121)
The Holy Bible
It was at this time
in my life that I felt the deep yearning to open the bible again
and learn more about Jesus, the man who suffered and died on the
cross, a subject I preferred to avoid in the past. As I perused through the New
Testament, finding the passages that were familiar to me I was
able to find comfort in the words of Jesus. These very profound
words gave me the courage and strength I so desperately needed. The
presence of God in His Word is undeniable!
Our Lady and The
One evening, I
suddenly remembered that I had a pamphlet I had stored in my
nightstand for years(can’t remember when or where I got it),
entitled “How to Pray the Rosary (including the mysteries with
pictures) and the 10 Promises of Mary.” I had always had
intentions of praying the rosary at some point in my life (when I
am not so busy and have the time I thought) because I felt drawn
to it, although I did not really know why at that time. I
retrieved the pamphlet and prayed the
The last prayer "Hail Holy Queen"
reflection. This prayer suddenly jarred my memory - we are
"poor banished children of Eve" and we are in "a valley
of tears"and "exile"! As I
reflected on the Mysteries, particularly the Sorrowful
Mysteries, I truly connected to Jesus, immersing myself in His
Passion for the first time in my life. It was as though I
was there with Him in the Garden of Gethsemane and on Calvary
and could comprehend the injustice and suffering He experienced
as much as was humanly possible. I knew that Jesus truly
understood my own misery, and in time I realized that He was to
become my only true consolation. The promises of Mother Mary were immensely comforting and reassuring so
from that point on I started praying the rosary daily.
holy Queen, Mother of mercy, our life, our sweetness and our
hope. To thee do we cry, poor banished children of Eve: to thee
do we send up our sighs, mourning and weeping in this valley of
tears. Turn then, most gracious Advocate, thine eyes of mercy
toward us, and after this our exile, show unto us the blessed
fruit of thy womb, Jesus. O merciful, O loving, O sweet Virgin
Mary pray for us so that we may be made worthy of the promises
of Christ. Amen.
this that no one will understand a soul entirely –that is beyond
human ability. Therefore, I have remained on earth to comfort
your aching heart and to fortify your soul, so that you will not
falter on the way. You say that a dense darkness is obscuring
your mind. But why, at such times do you not come to Me, the
light who can in an instant pour into your soul more
understanding about holiness than can be found in any books?"
Saint Michael The
During this time, Saint Michael
came to my awareness -
I believe the
Virgin Mary, Queen of Angels sent him to me.
I had absolutely no idea who he was other than he was a saint
and his name was Michael. I felt inspired to learn more about him and after doing
some research I came to know that he was St. Michael the
Archangel who had defeated Satan in the great battle in Heaven.
I was deeply inspired by this newly acquired knowledge of him.
This inspired me to purchase and venerate two statues of St.
Michael. I also started praying the St. Michael prayer and asking for his
assistance as well. I was blessed with several private
revelations of St. Michael at that time. While I did not see
him, I felt his very
strong undeniable presence, as well as that of Satan and their
I suddenly became aware
that we are at war - a spiritual battle for souls. From this I deduced that if St. Michael and
Satan exists, then
so does the Virgin Mary and her son Jesus Christ, just like it
says in the bible. The whole story of Adam and Eve and the
fall of one third of the angels
and mankind was not a fairytale to me after all - What an
enlightenment this was for me!
They'll Know We Are Christians
( "We Remember" CD - Blest & Broken)
this time several other sudden inspirations came to me which I
eventually realized were promptings from the Holy Spirit. The first
inspiration that came to me was to search
for and purchase the song "They’ll Know We Are Christians,"
one of my most favourite hymns as a child. I managed to find a beautiful
rendition of this song by a group called "Blest &
Broken" online. I went on to purchase Their CD entitled
"We Remember" which contained this song as well as several other
beautiful traditional Catholic hymns that I remembered and loved
in childhood. This song cd also became a tremendous source
of comfort to me as well.
CD purchase, I also received a free
“Divine Mercy Chaplet in Song” CD from "Blest & Broken." However, I
must confess, at that particular point in time, I did not know
what Divine Mercy Sunday (nor the Divine Mercy Chaplet) was as my church attendance was rather
spotty. A family member came home from church one Sunday and
asked me “Do you know what day it is today?” I replied: “No,
what?” I was told it was “Divine Mercy Sunday” and was provided
a brief explanation.
again, I felt this sudden inspiration come over me. I remembered
I had a “Divine Mercy Chaplet in Song" CD (the freebee that came
with the other CD I had purchased) that
still remained in its wrapper, unopened on my desk for many
months. I went to get it, opened and listened to it for the
first time. I thought it was the most beautiful prayer I had
ever heard! I found it interesting and not just a coincidence to
learn that the music group “Blest & Broken“ was made up of 7
(out of 11 children) American "Polish" siblings. Both of these
music CD's gave me immense joy and consolation during the tribulations
I was going through.